Today was a perfect day, since I went to Mass and received Communion :)

Before Mass, though, I went to Adoration, and I had a really interesting talk with Jesus, so I thought I'd share some of it with you:

Me - "God, I can't find you. Where should I go? How can I find you?"

Jesus - "Don't go anywhere. Stay where you are. I'm coming to you."

Me - "What do you mean? Why do you want me to stay here?"

Jesus - "You know when you were little and you would get lost in a store, and your mom would tell you to not go looking for her, but to just stay where you were and wait?"

Me - "Yeah, I'm not sure where You're going with this, though."

Jesus - "If you're lost and you don't have any map or any idea where to look, wandering around aimlessly isn't going to help. Stay where you are and I will come to you. Then you can follow me."

Me - "I'm still confused. How do I stay where I am and let you find me? What does that even mean?"

I didn't get an answer right away, but then, I went to Confession, and when I was talking to Fr. Baker, he said that I should find a time during my day every day to pray, to just sit and be quiet with God.

"It won't change the circumstances of your life," he said, "But it will change how you come at them."

And I said, "You know, I came in here with a question nagging at me from Adoration, and you just answered it."

I kinda like how Jesus withheld answering my question until after I'd gone to Confession. He left the question nagging at me so that I would go seek him in the Sacraments, and then when I had, he answered me.

I can't find God by wandering around frantically searching for Him, because He's not in the earthquake, or the fire, or the mighty wind (1 Kings 19). He's in the small, quiet sound that I can only hear when I sit very still and listen for Him.

Not sure if this story helps you in any way, but I'm praying for you!

:)